One day more..

January is nearing completion, February is but a few steps away.

The first month that I am supposed to be out of job proves to be the most busy.

I am always out meeting old and new friends, trying to find projects that I could take in for my daily living.

God works in mysterious ways since I've gotten more than I imagined. Had I only known that consulting is a possible avenue for me, I should have done this long ago. However, I am still afraid of the unknown months that will be coming. And my resources are limited but the debts are constant. I have an offer for a more firm project, but that will entail me coming in regularly. Plus the fact that I've turn this down a long time ago when I was still employed. Hmm. decisions, decisions.

On a side note, I can personally attest to the saying that when God closes a door, He always leave a window open. This has been so true lately. Sometimes, in our hurried lives, we fail to see the little miracles being performed before our very eyes.

Case dismissed

After agonizing since September 2012 over a case filed against me which is purely for harassment, I received a copy of a Resolution dismissing the charges against me. Sadly, I was not able to take with me another person who was also included in the lot. And it was hard for me to acknowledge the fact that I cannot do anything to help him as it was like a "hunger games" situation. I should stop feeling guilty that I was able to extricate myself from this sticky situation although a lot of cleaning up still has to be done. I did not ask to be placed in this situation, maybe I was too trusting to a fault and too blinded for receiving a monthly stipend for not doing anything. But then technically, it was only for a few months, after that, it was all bickering and backstabbing. Maybe, the lesson to be learned here is that I should accept that someone is  not really my friend and that I should stop associating myself with her. Another lesson is that I should not "lend" my name to random strangers since that is the only possession that I really own.

Costly life lessons

Last year, actually it all started a year before 2012, a friend asked me to help her with her client. She needed someone who will act as a "caretaker" for a company that she is setting up for a foreigner client.  As I know my friend from way back, I did not think twice to say yes. The job description did not require any other skills or specification, just common sense and some reading and writing.

Middle of the year, I found out that I lack common sense. I had been in the middle of a turbulent turf war between two foreign corporations fighting over Manila space and I am now looking after me. My friend who placed me in this situation, has left me to deal with her clients, saying that I should be the one to talk to them about my demands (apparently receiving an honorarium from them automatically made me responsible for them).  I also found myself a respondent in a criminal case with respect to this.  Having a criminal case made me realize that what I just read about anxiety, sleepless night and stress are not mere words on paper. I was also exposed to the lowest of the low in our criminal justice system.

Hopefully, this start  of the new year will bring me good news. I should learn to fight for myself. No more being nice. I now learned that this really is a "dog eat dog" world, and unless you are born with a silver spoon in your mouth, life will never be easy in a third world country. I also learned that some friends are just there for PR and marketing and the length of time that you know each other is not a guarantee that they will stand by you through thick or thin.

Beginning Anew

Last year, I turned into the age where they said life begins.

After working for an employer ever since I graduated, I suddenly found myself without a master. I could write here how I was slowly eased out as a new set of management came in but I do not want to start the year in bitterness and negative vibes.

So, this year, I took a jump into the unknown without any parachute or safety nets.
I should learn to enjoy it.